Letters to my darling

Dearest baby G, 

You are now slightly over 4mths old (2mths corrected) and it's been amazing having you around. Right now you seems to have an obsession with your little rocker which has a little sticker of a sun and snail. You can stare at that and smile to yourself silly. I can't help but smile and laugh in such awe. Like a simple little thing can make you so happy and contented. 

Yeps that's the thing you are easily fixated on. 

Whenever I look at you I am still in disbelief that I had you growing in my belly. And look how far you have come. You were born under such uncertain circumstances. Mummy and daddy didn't know what to expect at all. But whenever we looked at you, we knew how special and determined you were. You fought so hard everyday and bam look how chubby you are now! From a scrawny little thing to a Michelin baby(: 

I always Love to tell people your birth story. I'm just so proud of you my little warrior. And I'm so sure everyone in our family loves you to bits. I look at grandma and Aunty look at you with so much love. You definitely have brought a lot of joy to our lives. You will definitely be spoilt rotten my sweetheart. 

I have written many letters to you and one day you will learn that our family is very interesting. Till the next one... You are amazing and keep on growing stronger and healthier everyday! 

The battle of the b(r)e(a)st milk

I've noticed many times on breastfeeding Facebook pages the influx of pro breastfeeders condemning mothers who supplement a few feeds with formula. Honestly I think it's time someone stood up for mothers who give formula or just even supplement a few feeds!! 

Look we all know breastmilk is the best for our babies. However some mothers aren't blessed with a good supply for various reasons. So when a comment pops up saying "I give fm for a few feeds" I can just feel the judgemental tones of all these other mothers who then comment "why do you need to give FM?? Just keep latching baby cause your body will automatically make enough milk to support baby's needs" Like excuse me we live in the 21st century where technology and science is so advanced and formula milk is just as good as breastmilk. Every mother makes the decision to give their child whatever they feel fits so what I can't stand is the judgy tone and the way they phrase their comments as if these mothers who choose formula are poisoning their child!!! Like it's ridiculous! At the end of the day, we are still providing some form of milk to our babies and as long as they grow healthily isn't that enough?!

Honestly latching/pumping isn't the life for every mother. It's time consuming and robs away precious time which some mothers just don't have to spare. So obviously they will choose formula where it's jus a few scoops of powder and water and bam milk is done! The thing with exclusive pumping mothers like myself I have to anticipate and judge when she will wake up to drink and warm her milk up so when she wakes up it's ready for her. Many a times when I oversleep I wake up to a screaming baby and I have to let her scream for another additional 5mins while waiting for the milk to heat up. Whereas compared to formula it's ready in less than a minute. 

Then there are those mothers who die die won't give formula. 

Eg: 

"I've got very low supply. Tried fenugreek, oats and power pump but nothing works! How ah?" 

How!? My answer to you is give formula!! Some mothers really suffer from chronic low supply and whatever they do doesn't work. So instead of letting your child get hungry more times a day cause you aren't providing enough just give formula!! Why is it so hard to give formula?! What I see is that the cost isn't the top reason why mothers don't wanna give formula it's more of the "face value". Like breastfeeding mothers are more superior than formula mothers -,- I have witnessed dagger eyes or like you know THAT kind of judgy eyes from the breast feeding mothers whenever a formula mother says "I give formula."  oh please at the end of the day we are all mothers and providing the best for our child. 

And who says breastfed babies are healthier than the formula babies?! Every child's immunity is different and it has nothing to do with breast milk or formula milk. What I don't get is why stress over low supply when the simple solution of formula is just right there!!? 

I havnt been able to breastfeed baby G for the past few days and coming next 2 days cause I'm on antibiotics. I'm giving her my frozen stash which by the way smells rancid and yucky!! I feel so sorry giving her that horrible smelling crap (and really is frozen milk still as nutritious as compared to formula?) so I have also added in a scoop of similac neosure (which is formula milk specially for premature babies which helps boosts their DHA, eyes and brain development). You tell me how "bad" formula milk is when science is so advanced that they are putting a bunch of really good nutrients in formulas today. 

I've breast fed baby G for 4mths and counting now. Even now when I can't give her my milk I'm still pumping to keep up with my supply. Honestly my main reason why I'm still breast feeding it's because I can maintain my weight and eat as much as I want! Hahaha! I've had the thought to stop breastfeeding her sooner than my 1 year mark. Cause I feel I need some sense of normality back in my life (like a constant 10hour sleep/not having to lug my pump out when I'm out and stopping my shopping when I'm out). But I too wanna save $ since breast milk is free and I have the supply so why not right? But if there is a day where my supply jus dries up, I won't be like those frantic stressed out mothers who die die wanna give breast milk. I will just simply give similac formula. Either breast milk or formula, we are still feeding our children. 

That's baby G's cousin Owen who is a formula baby and he's just as plumpy (even plumpier) than some breastfed babies!

Shall do another update of baby G and flood it with pictures in my next post! 

Baby fairs 101

Over this weekend there is a massive baby fair at suntec convention hall 401-404 and another smaller scaled one at expo. I'm pretty sure every parent flocked to the one at suntec. I LOVE baby fairs cause I LOVE shopping for my princess. 5 days after my c sect way back in April my husband and I braved the crowds n my c sect pains to conquer the baby fair organized by mummy's market and bought soooooo many things for baby G. Because she came so unexpectedly, we really didn't have enough time to prep for her. So me being kiasu and super excited for her arrival went to buy a lot of things for her (which she only used them when she was discharged 2months later!) hahaha 

Anyways I knew this baby fair was going to be quite mad cause there are formulas and diapers sale. And as you all know at every baby fair, only the big fairs have diapers and formulas. The first baby fair we were much prepared! We went with a trolley and drove my Volvo xc60 (SUV; yes I shopped so much that that car came in very handy!) 

We went to the fair yesterday after having lunch at 12pm. One mistake I made (I didn't listen to my husband) was bringing baby G. I always thought with baby fairs if you being a huge stroller you can just bang your way through/people would generally give way to you! Hell was I wrong! Well it worked for a while but I guess when you fight with the 101000 other parents with prams it does get frustrating. 

At about 2pm Merries diapers were sold out and they had to battle with a lot of angry parents. For me I just simply walked away and went for another brand (we aren't fussy with diapers really. Just wanna find one with good absorbent and cute prints hahahaha). Which was why we ended up with Mamy Poko cause they had very cute Winnie the Pooh prints which got me completely sold! 

I really intended to shop more but my husband was stressing me out and with the pram it got annoying. Baby G slept through the entire thing and was just an angel so she wasn't the problem. But yea lesson learnt NEVER bring the baby/child/stroller! And since it was at suntec getting up to the fair itself was such a chore for us! Let's just say we spent about 30mins avoiding stairs with the pram and searching for lifts before we succumbed to travel "dangerously" by the escalator. Plus I woke up at 6.50am in the morning and was out running errands as early as 8am so I was completely zonked out by the time we headed to the fair which got me all cranky and annoyed with the crowds; totally no mood for any shopping.

So some tips for baby fairs (another one coming up in October): 

1) NEVER bring baby/child/stroller 

2) Bring cash (most places do card transactions but for diapers some only accept cash) 

3) List down things you MUST get (honestly some of the deals aren't that impressive like you probably only save a few $ and to fight with the crowd is ridiculous and not worth it. So make sure you REALLY need the item and that the deal is really that worth it) 

4) Do your research prior to the fair (these fairs post what vendors will be there and the layout of the fair weeks/days in advance. So know what you wanna buy and which booths they will be at. 

5) Bring a trolley (I can't stress how important this is especially if you intend to shop a lot/buy cartons of diapers) 

6) Get enough rest and hydrate!! (Crowds can make you tired easily and can get quite stressful and headachey) 

7) Wear comfy shoes and clothes (I won't recommended slippers cause chances of your toes getting rolled over by prams or stepped out is really high!) 

8) Divide and conquer (I'm pretty sure it's the mummies who do the shopping! So mummies do your shopping and daddies can help to queue up so you won't spend so much unnecessary time making payment and spending it on one booth) 

To sum up, I didn't find this baby fair as awesome as the one organized by mummy's market. Suntec is really hectic to begin with so I won't say it's the best location. And thing is all the diapers and formulas were scattered around the hall which is so silly in my opinion!! And popular vendors like Merries didn't even have a big sign so finding them were tedious too! 

I know my husband won't be going to the next fair with me in October but I can't wait since I didn't manage to get anything awesome for baby G so I intend to go all out during the next one! and by then I would be prepping to start on solids for her so need to get all the tools and appliances. Hahaha 

Thoughts at 3am

-dam coffee I had at 9pm is keeping me up (it's now almost 3.30am) 

-stomach churning from the nasi lemak I had for dinner 

-baby G is wiggling around... Time to feed her soon 

-pumping milk now as I'm typing this (not going to give this milk to baby G as it's laced with caffeine) 

-wanna eat something (shall go make a snack while making baby G's milk hot later) 

-I know I'm going to crash after this very badly (n I got lunch plans with my mummy at 12.30 later) 

I guess I can't sleep is due to the dam coffee and my slight anxiety. Searching for jobs online and I'm stuck. I've got a degree in Bachelor of Arts (psychology). I really don't know what I wanna or can do. I wish I can be a stay at home mum (tai tai) for the rest of my life. But I can't since I don't wanna put all the financial stress on my husband and I figured I may get bored. Eventually I do wish to be a stay at home mum but not any time soon as we just bought our house and finances would then chalk up in the coming years. Now I can afford to not work since we really don't have much heavy expenses to bear. 

1) i've always had the interest in planning events since I think I'm pretty good at it? So I'm thinking the hotel industry. 

2) I was good at developmental psychology when I studied it. Always had a secret interest in it which I forgot about until giving birth to baby G. Like somehow having a child ignited that passion again. But with this I definitely need my Masters. There is a school which offers this degree but requires work experience in the education field which I don't have. Sighhh which means if I really want to go for this I need to work in a school (which I did for a month but no way in hell am I going back there). But I don't have any interest in being a teacher? 

3) I've always been intrigued by criminal psychology or working in the prison. Went for interviews for that but did not cut it cause it was work at the male prison and I guess they think I'm too tiny and weak to work there (which my husband didn't like the idea too; then I didn't know I was pregnant so it was a blessing in disguise that I didn't get that job). But i don't know... Something in me still would love to be given the opportunity to work in a related field like that. 

4) mental health is also an interest. But many people don't think I can take the emotional stresses that come with it (since I'm such an emotional person and I get too involved in people's feelings.) 

Sigh so stress. I gave myself till the end of the year to send out resumes and I should work by the beginning of next year. Now that the year is almost ending I'm beginning to panic. And that means my time of being a full time mummy is ending soon. Noooooo :( 

A woman, wife and mother

I came across this comment by a mummy on fb and that inspired me to write about this topic... 

Carrying a life for 10months is no easy job. Its back breaking (literally) and your hormones get all weird and funny. You bloat up like a puffer fish and it's really not that glamorous (lucky for me I wasn't THAT puffy). Most days you just wanna stay in your pjs, not shower and have the messiest hair ever. And if you think you can go back to being glam again after you give birth think again! 

Next you battle with sleep deprivation, spit ups on all your shirts, you smell like breast milk on most days, you don't have time to shower or even if you shower you off the tap every few seconds to check if baby is crying or if you are just hallucinating. You don't even have time to upkeep your personal hygiene less dress up and slap make up on your face. So of course you don't feel sexy or glamorous at all. In your eyes you look like a total mess! Why would you even want to be intimate with your husband or have the energy to wanna get sexy in bed?

Some mummies feel guilty or feel that they fail as a wife (I feel like this too). Yes it's totally normal to feel that way. Cause really all your energy and time is devoted to your newborn. But that doesn't mean you should totally neglect your husband. 

Some mummies would feel that with a newborn they are a mother first then wife next. Some feel they are a wife first then mother next. Whatever the case is, you are a woman, wife and mother all at the same time. You need to have a fair share of all 3 responsibilities and job roles. 

Just for a few hours, pick out a nice outfit, slap on some make up and go for tea with the girls or just roam around shopping malls on your own. For me I go for a weekly massage with my mummy leaving baby G at home with daddy. That's my way of spending some ME time. And once a month my mummy and I would go do our nails together too leaving baby g in the hands of my mother in law. when we do go out as a couple or family, I still do dress up and put on make up. Trust me a nice pretty outfit and make up goes a long way! It boosts your confidence as a woman and mother. Hey who says mothers can't look sexy and pretty!? 

My husband and I do go out alone every week for a few hours. Even if it's just going to our nearby neighborhood mall for a simple dinner in our slacks, that's spending quality time together as a married couple. We are lucky and thankful we have so much help from our mothers that's why we can afford to go out so much. But another problem I see is most new mums can't bear to leave their newborn. To me that's not very healthy. You need your ME time or time as a wife and husband. I guess for us the hospital "trained" us. Since baby G was at the hospital for such a long time, we had the "training" to be able to walk away from our newborn. It's not easy I tell you but once you learn to leave your newborn at home, it gets easier. You really need that few hours away for yourself. 

So my tips for new mummies: 

1) learn to leave baby in the care of someone else 

2) slap on make up and put on a pretty outfit and have your ME time 

3) or run a nice hot bubble bath and relax! (Or do something you love!)

4) have time away from baby and spend time as a couple (even if you don't go out, cook a nice meal, have a long conversation over the meal, rent a movie and cuddle up!) 

5) COMMUNICATE! (I can't stress how important this is to maintain a healthy and successful marriage! If you don't wanna get intimate then voice out and explain why) 

To the husbands: 

1) plan a date night at least once a week without baby 

2) complement your wife still even when she's in a pjs and has spit ups all over her shirt 

3) understand that being intimate with your wife is not a priority of hers for now (you have to understand that we women went through drastic changes in our bodies to give birth to this amazing life. And breast feeding does put a halt on our "sexy" hormones (we just don't feel like doing it). 

4) be patient and give us our time to recuperate from birth (it can take months but I'm sure when that time comes it's worth the wait!! *wink wink nudge nudge*) 

These were the days where we left baby G at home and went out. Havnt been taking much pics of late cause we have been hanging out at our neighbor malls on our slacks and totally unglam! Haha 

But this weekend we have plans so I promise pics of our faces instead of baby G! Haha 

In my next post I shall blog about how my husband and I have maintained our "job roles" as husband/wife and daddy/mummy!

Remember mummies... NEVER forget who you are!!! Take care and pamper yourself once in a while! You need it!! 

4mths old

Baby G is exactly 4mths old!!! Time flies when u are having so much fun creating so much memories (: I love looking back at her pics when she was first born. Tiny lil thing she was and now look at her Michelin tyre legs!!! My goodness! She's growing so much faster than I anticipated. Soon it's going to be the end of the yr and I will have to start work next year n I won't be around her 24/7 :( 

She has the sweetest smile ever! Always warms my heart (: 

The 2 boys love to look for her. They acknowledged her existence quite quickly n now whenever we come home they must say hi to her too! 

This pao face makes me laugh so much!! 

Woke us up at 5.30am n Because I needed to pump daddy had to feed her. He was so tired n this resulted. Hahahaha

Squishy thighs! Hahahaha

Milestones at 4mths actual (1.5mths corrected): 

Her head control is so much better. She's able to hold her up upright for a longer time 

She knows how to smile and "talk back" to you when you smile or talk to her. We have very interesting conversations everyday! Haha 

When you lie her on her back she is now able to turn her body half way to the right or left.

She is more awake these days (lesser sleep needed)

Pretty much the same as last mth but I reckon she's picking up real fast as she is only 1.5mths (coming 2mths on 26th aug; we track her age milestones from her due date which is 26th June). But jus that she's more alert and talkative.  

Advice columns: helpful or more of a harm?

I've joined many parenting pages on fb since the birth of baby G. I think every parent who join such pages want to learn frm other mummies experiences n also post questions if they may hav doubts n see wat other mummies hav to say. But wat makes me cringe is when I read mummies posting questions n mummies who reply them think tt watever they say is rite. 

Case in point: 

When a doctor or pd says one thing... Mummies would often say "don't listen to them as not all of them are rite." (ESP those doctors who aren't pro breast feeding) 

Yes I agree tt some doctors may nt be well learnt in the area of breastfeeding in terms of wat medications are safe or nt but surely they are more educated than us mummies? 

N the way some mummies reply irks me too. Like as if they are dam knowledgable n their advice is like 100% correct u die die should listen to them. 

I came across one question posted by a mummy jus today. Basically in a nutshell her baby is also a preemie n was prescribed iron supplements (like baby G) during the stay at the hospital n upon discharged. She stopped giving the iron supps cuz baby was constipated n fussy. She asked if she should give or is breastmilk enough. 

N I commented saying u should continue cuz preemies needs are veri different frm full term babies. Preemies lack certain nutrition n hence are prescribed certain supps for a reason. K y preemies are prescribed iron supps (at least for the case of baby G) is tt she had apnea episodes (she would stop breathing in her sleep) while she was in nicu cuz of low red blood cells. She had 2 blood transfusions which thankfully helped n iron supps are to make sure her red blood cell count stays at the optimal level whr she won't fall into apnea. Nw she is older n won't fall into apnea as she is stronger n able to produce the appropriate amt of red blood cells but I still give her the extra iron everyday cuz it was prescribed to her n I see no harm in giving her tt. She isn't constipated so I hav jus stuck to it. She's even on vitamins too. 

Thr will be mummies who say "BM is the most nutrious of all! So y worry if ur baby is doing well? Y bother giving such supplements? If u worry u eat more vitamins/iron supps then it will go to ur BM." (N these are mummies who babies are full term wif no knowledge abt the needs n differences of preemies n full term babies). Mind u whatever supplements we breast feeding mummies take onli a small % gets passed through to our milk for our babies. Wat makes u so sure tt tt tiny amt is sufficient for a preemie/any full term baby? 

Wat I'm trying to say is tt every baby n mummy is different. Every baby has different needs. Sometimes these advices may work or may nt. So always take it wif a pinch of salt. Every mummy who post their advices to questions are speaking based on their own experiences wif their baby. But tt doesn't mean they are 100% correct. 

Plus I like to stress tt preemie n full term babies hav different needs!!! Even their bodies develop differently too. 

(Ps hope u mummies do nt take this post the wrong way. But advice giving/advice receiving realli must be Thot through correctly cuz wat u say/listen to can either be helpful or harmful)  

A skinnier milk cow

Every time I see old frens or mummies who gave birth mths before me I will never fail to get this statement "wah u lost so much weight! U don't look like u gave birth pls!!" N here are my standard replies: 

"Breast feeding was my natural weight lost secret! I lost the baby weight in a wk!" 

"I was onli pregnant for 7wks n onli put on 6kgs. When gwyn came out tt was 2kgs gone so the rest was realli all thxs to breast feeding." 

No seriously breast feeding is my secret weight lost method! No kidding. In fact I'm eating waaaaayyyyyy more than I ever hav (prob as much as when I was in Aus. OMG *shudder* those fat fat bloated days). Breast feeding makes u REALLI hungry! N it's been said tt every time u breast feed/pump it takes abt 50 calories. 

But then thr are other breast feeding mums tt tell me it's been mths since they gave birth but yet they still hav the excess baby weight. All I can say is every body is different n there are a lot of factors that play a part on whether u lose the baby weight or nt. 

1) metabolism (I won't say my metabolism is very high cuz it isn't) 

2) age (I guess cuz I'm younger than other mummies so my body shrinks back faster? Idk I've seen other young mummies who are younger or around my age shrink back super fast also!) 

3) exercise (no I havnt went back to my exercise regime yet. But maybe it has something to do wif the fact tt I did hot yoga n gym a lot be4 I got pregnant. Actually when I was at my early wks of pregnancy I was still exercising. Oh wait I do carry baby gwyn n walk up n down the stairs at my husband's place. Tts the onli exercise I do.) 

I'm aware I'm super lucky to lose the baby weight so quickly. I'm nw close to 4mths postpartum n in fact I've lost 3kgs frm my pre pregnancy weight n I'm nt even exercising or keeping watch of watever I'm eating. So back again I stress tt every body reacts differently. 

Plus thr aren't short cuts to losing weight. For me breast feeding realli helps (though I'm exclusive pumping; I rely on my breast pump to lose the weight). I hav to pump at least 5 times a day (which means taking out 3hrs a day of my time)... Wake up in the middle of the nite jus to pump even though I'm already so sleep deprived wif a crying baby. Whenever I'm out I hav to lug my stupid big ass baby bag wif my pump inside n I hav to take 30mins of my time when I'm out to pump. So yes I worked dam hard to lose the weight. It didn't come easy. 

So if breast feeding doesn't work for u... U hav to work a lil more harder. I definitely won't recommend a strict diet cuz u need to eat balance n more meals a day to keep ur supply up. Eat more number of meals but small meals. Eat healthily n exercise is the key!! 

I understand that we are all mummies who are sleep deprived n some even full time working mums. But jus take 30mins a day to exercise. No time to head to the gym? Go on YouTube n search for exercise videos! I recommend blogilates by Casey Ho! She's AMazIINNGGG! I did her work outs pre pregnancy n man does it realli burn u at the rite places! N if ur baby is sturdy enough.. Thr are exercises tt u can do together wif ur baby! They are ur natural weights! Jus carry baby n do squats. Or put baby in a wrap or sling wrap n squat! Recently I saw mummies strapping their babies to the wraps n doig ballet! Creative n fun! I'm waiting for baby gwyn to get a more sturdy be4 I start working out wif her! It's also a great bonding experience for mummy n baby! 

I'm dying to get back to my yoga n exercise! I suspended my yoga membership as I was pregnant n nw it's 4mths since I had my c sec I'm ready to go back! My surgery scar still hurts sometimes but I guess I jus won't push myself too much. 

Plus my back n neck hav been hurting so bad carrying baby n all yoga realli helps!! So I'm dying to go back!

I hope this post helps! Cuz I did get a few emails frm mummies asking me hw I lost weight. But realli it isn't any amazing secret. Haha I basically did... Erm nothing? I did nothing out of the ordinary. 

Don't wait till ur baby grows up to a toddler then u start exercising. Cuz by then it will be more difficult to lose the weight as it's been sitting in ur body for so many yrs. 

My pre preggers body. 

No pic of my body nw cuz it pretty much is the same as the above pic. Somehow my ab line miraculous came back a few wks ago. 

"Hard work will pay off!!! Hang in there mummies!" 

It's a rough patch

If uve been reading my blog frm the veri beginning... U would noe tt baby gwyn is a fairly easy baby. She sleeps most of the time n onli screams when she's hungry. But recently she's so fussy!! On Tuesday she had veri short naps. Like 5mins n she wakes up crying for a while n it's so hard to soothe her back to sleep. She was in n out of her naps frm 4pm to abt 2am. So whenever she wakes up during her midnight feeds n I need to sleep so I put her to sleep, I've been cradling her n I put her pacifier in her mouth to suck n she drifts back to sleep fairly easily. But these past few days when I do tt she jus screams n screams n screams! Worse of all she screams until she has tears which makes it so pitiful. I feel helpless at times n then sometimes I feel so mad n frustrated. Cuz I'm sleep deprived n I hav to soothe a fussy baby. 

But then when she calms down n FINALLY falls asleep... I will kiss her n all is well in the world again! Hahahaha. So yea I get y some mummies get the blues n they go crazy. Cuz realli it's super stressful. Like I wanna soothe this poor crying baby quickly so she won't cry so much n I too wanna sleep immediately. 

I'm praying it's jus a phase she's gg through cuz she's nv been like tt n I read tt babies do get fussy at some point. Like watever she used to like jus doesn't work anymore. Any mummies encountered this be4? Like an angel turning into a devil? Pls let me noe!!! I BEGGGGG u!! 

Jus last nite my husband slept at his place n we slept at mine cuz I hav an early doc appt for my carpel tunnel syndrome the next morn n my mil couldn't take care of her. So I was left to deal wif her alone. She onli went to bed abt 4plus n I had to get up at 7am to pump n send my sis to work n I'm nw at the doctors. 

In other news... Ive decided to go for a minor op for my carpel tunnel. N apparently I'm like the youngest patient to ever get this. It takes 6wks to recover n I won't be able to use my hand?! Someone enlighten me hw an I to carry my baby? Hmmm 

Or maybe nt go for the surgery till she's older? Idk cuz on days when I go out wif baby gwyn n my mum wifout my husband... I hav to lift her car seat in n out of the car... Set up the pram n all. So idk man.... Hmmm shall talk to my husband again. 

For nw visuals of my lil growing warrior 

I swear Aunty has a lot of pics wif her niece! 

So recently I became an addict to this stupid rainbow loom! Hahaha my 1st 3D figure! My little pony's rainbow dash 

Other people hang real my little ponies on their bag but I'm too cool for tt so I made my own pony bag charm! Hahahaha

Celebrating our warrior princess gwyn's homecoming

We celebrated our warrior princess' homecoming/102days old last Saturday (26th July)! We wanted to do her 100 days old but it fell on a Thursday so we shifted it 2 days later which was coincidentally her exact 1mth if she was born on her due date (26th June!) how timely n it was a great but exhausting celebration! 

I had already picked out wat she was gg to wear mths ago! She was gifted his dolce n gabbana romper frm our family fren n I fell in love wif it instantly! The theme was Mulan (since she was a warrior) n I Thot the prints on this romper was so asian inspired? Haha yes my baby wears dolce n gabbana! 

Our first proper family photo wif baby gwyn wide awake! N dam her eyes are becoming more n more like her dad's -.- nooooooo 

N here's her proud Aunty parading around. My sister had more pics wif gwyn than I did okay!!! N then I realised I didn't take a proper pic wif baby gwyn alone. Pffttt

Well at least i got a pic of my nice hair n a cute baby face! 

Grandma is so proud too! 

Aunty n uncle 

See wat I mean? Hahaha but at least I had a baby sitter 

Nw thrs a tragic story behind the cake. I was honestly veri upset abt it cuz it realli cost us a lot for this cake n I was so looking forward to it! Sighhhh... 

Wif my in-laws 

N then I was wondering whr was I in this pic!!? It would hav been nice if I was in it too! 4 generations (great grandma n grandma n baby) whrs mummy!!!?

Wif Sean's colleagues. We hav joined the parenthood clan! 

We had a BBQ after which I was already super poofed out n out of it! I jus shouldn't host parties this yr cuz I was mad tired. My wedding... I was sooooo tired n out of it n couldn't enjoy myself 100% cuz I was pregnant. Then her party i was sleep deprived. Thr were so many logistic issues during the party n I felt so bad tt our guests had to help us out a lot! So thxs everyone for sharing our joy n esp to those who helped us out so much wif clearing up n all! N Samuel who took pics for us n did a veri nice keepsake for us! He printed the pics instantly into a Polaroid size n stuck it on a huge frame n guests got to sign the border! Realli innovative n creative idea to hold our memories of tt day! 

Our lil warrior princess has come such a long way! We cannot be more proud of her! Everyone had such praises for her saying hw cute n wat a fighter she is! We love u so much our princess! N may u grow up to become a respectful n amazing young lady!