Lightweight party at sgh 2014

On the 6th of sept we went to our first party at the hospital. It's a celebration for all these lil warriors which the hospital holds yearly. When I first got the invite I knew exactly what I wanted baby G to wear! It was an underwater themed party. And if you know me well enough I LOVE Ariel from little mermaid. So I hunted for a mermaid costume for baby G and that was what she wore (: 

It has been 3mths since she left the hospital and it was the first time she saw the nurses and doctors again. They had so much praises for her and all exclaimed how cute she was in her costume!!! She was declared "best dress" of the day by the team and she won the 3rd price in the lucky draw!! 

I've never won anything in my 22years of life. I wanted to resign to my sad fate when they were going to announce the top 3 prices. I thought "aiya I guess we have no luck". But bam they announced her name and I was doing my happy dance inside. Hahahahaha eh first time winning something okay!!! Of course I was a proud mama! LOL 

Some of the nurses carried her and "air swimmed" her. She was enjoying herself and kept smiling and squealing away! She was so poofed out by the end of the party and she slept through the night. 

One of my favorite family photos (:

And can you tell I was in Little mermaid Ariel's colour scheme! Haha 

I have such gratitude to the whole nicu team of sgh. I believe I can speak for my husband too. She was so well taken off during her 2mths stay at the hospital. When we couldn't be there with her 24/7 they were like her second mothers who loved her just as much as us. The way they care for these little warriors are amazing. They have so much love and dedication for these tiny beings. And they guided us so well as to how to care for her when she came home and especially since we were first time parents too. Thank you so much to the nicu team of sgh. No words can express our gratitude to you. 

*dam deleted the pics of the nurses off my phone. Check out my facebook to see the faces who cheered these little warriors on* 

Reflections Wednesday

I have been following both youtubers AprilAthena and Bubzbeauty for quite a while. And when I found out they were pregnant I was estactic cause finally I can watch them and go "ah OMG totally understand how you feel man!" Cause I was pregnant around the same time as them as well. And fun fact baby G was born 5 days before April's Liam when she was due in June. I just watched bubzbeauty's vlog on her newborn and couldn't help but tear and totally understood how she felt when she had to leave her baby Issac in the hospital for an extra day/not being able to have your baby by your side after delivering. Likewise for me, I couldn't see baby G on the day I delivered and I was jealous and so upset that I couldn't have my baby by my side. And when I saw her through the incubator my heart ached so much. 

I had to walk away from the hospital for 2months and a bit without my baby. It was devastating and so hard. Yes it got easier but as I constantly reflect on our journey I always ask myself "how the hell did I get through those months!!?" Cause it was excruciating. 

Even up to now I marvel at how far she has come for a tiny being. Honestly I still marvel at the fact that I actually carried this lil warrior in my belly for 7months. I still find it unbelievable that she's even out!! Like I can actually hold her. Sometimes when I look at her I need to touch her a few more times to make sure she is real! 

A couple of days ago I actually woke up and when I saw my husband carry her, I thought I was still in a dream in my sleep. Like "what I gave birth to such an amazing being!!?" So yea it has been 4months and it hasn't sunk in DEEP within my brain that I have a daughter, we went through such a trying but amazing journey as a family and that she's home in my arms. 

Some mummies get "sick" of being with their child (those stay at home mums) 24/7 but for me I enjoy every second of it! Though I'm not by her side all the time cause I have so much help from my mum and mil, I still know that I can just walk into the room where she is and give her a lil kiss and go back to my "me" time. 

Then jus today my husband and I went to buy diapers and we bought both size S and M (M is till 11kgs and she's 6kg now) my husband made a comment "soon we have to buy L already." The thought of her growing up so fast before our eyes just gave a lil pinch in my heart. But I'm also anticipating her toddling days!! I can totally imagine her wearing those pretty dresses she has and running around. Too cute I can dieeeeee. 

My precious baby G, mummy and daddy has got so much love for you. We may not be perfect parents but I assure you we will do our best and give you the best. You have fought hard for your life and life will continue to get hard as you grow up. But always remember that mummy, daddy and your family will always stand by you and you are never alone. We love you and continue to be amazing our lil angel. 

It's a rough patch

If uve been reading my blog frm the veri beginning... U would noe tt baby gwyn is a fairly easy baby. She sleeps most of the time n onli screams when she's hungry. But recently she's so fussy!! On Tuesday she had veri short naps. Like 5mins n she wakes up crying for a while n it's so hard to soothe her back to sleep. She was in n out of her naps frm 4pm to abt 2am. So whenever she wakes up during her midnight feeds n I need to sleep so I put her to sleep, I've been cradling her n I put her pacifier in her mouth to suck n she drifts back to sleep fairly easily. But these past few days when I do tt she jus screams n screams n screams! Worse of all she screams until she has tears which makes it so pitiful. I feel helpless at times n then sometimes I feel so mad n frustrated. Cuz I'm sleep deprived n I hav to soothe a fussy baby. 

But then when she calms down n FINALLY falls asleep... I will kiss her n all is well in the world again! Hahahaha. So yea I get y some mummies get the blues n they go crazy. Cuz realli it's super stressful. Like I wanna soothe this poor crying baby quickly so she won't cry so much n I too wanna sleep immediately. 

I'm praying it's jus a phase she's gg through cuz she's nv been like tt n I read tt babies do get fussy at some point. Like watever she used to like jus doesn't work anymore. Any mummies encountered this be4? Like an angel turning into a devil? Pls let me noe!!! I BEGGGGG u!! 

Jus last nite my husband slept at his place n we slept at mine cuz I hav an early doc appt for my carpel tunnel syndrome the next morn n my mil couldn't take care of her. So I was left to deal wif her alone. She onli went to bed abt 4plus n I had to get up at 7am to pump n send my sis to work n I'm nw at the doctors. 

In other news... Ive decided to go for a minor op for my carpel tunnel. N apparently I'm like the youngest patient to ever get this. It takes 6wks to recover n I won't be able to use my hand?! Someone enlighten me hw an I to carry my baby? Hmmm 

Or maybe nt go for the surgery till she's older? Idk cuz on days when I go out wif baby gwyn n my mum wifout my husband... I hav to lift her car seat in n out of the car... Set up the pram n all. So idk man.... Hmmm shall talk to my husband again. 

For nw visuals of my lil growing warrior 

I swear Aunty has a lot of pics wif her niece! 

So recently I became an addict to this stupid rainbow loom! Hahaha my 1st 3D figure! My little pony's rainbow dash 

Other people hang real my little ponies on their bag but I'm too cool for tt so I made my own pony bag charm! Hahahaha

Baby gwyn's milestone: she's 3mths old today!

I havnt been updating much as I'm honestly realli sleep deprived. Plus nth exciting has been happening wif baby gwyn as all she does is sleep, eat, poop n the whole cycle repeats. She's technically onli 19days old (she's exactly 3mths actual today) so it's normal tt she still sleeps so much as compared to a 3mth old baby. 

As she is a premature baby, we are told for the first few yrs of her life we will count her age as frm her due date esp when looking at milestones n all. 

Her milestones so far (19days old/13wks old) 

-her head is veri strong n she's able to lift her head up for a veri long time 

-during tummy time she's able to lift her head n turn frm left to rite n vice versa 

-during tummy time she can nw use her hands to support n lift her head up 

-she can hold her head in the straight up position while sitting her down for a pretty long time be4 she bobbles around 

-during tummy time she is kicking her legs a lot (means she's learning hw to use her legs for crawling in the future) 

-she follows ur eye movement 

-she smiles when u call her name most of the time 

-she has learnt to put her hands to her mouth n is learning to suck them 

-during tummy time she can lift her legs up in the air (lying on her stomach) 

-when lying on her back she is almost able to roll over 

Hmm so tts abt it I guess. To me she's doing realli well for a 19day old baby! 

Happy 3mths old my lil princess!! Uve been nothing but a joy to hav around! We love u so much!! 

11wks old: growth spurt

It was jus last nite wif baby gwyn woke up on the dot every 3hrs. N after an hr of her usual feed, she cried for milk again n I decided to try n breastfeed her n she took the breast again. So I figured she's gg through a growth spurt. Cuz last wk she could jus sleep through for 6hrs or won't even get up to drink. N she's a bit fussy today so could be the painful joints. Oh wells gd sign she is growing well! 

Nonetheless she is still an awesome n veri well behaved baby. Had my grandma's bday celebration on Sunday so it was the first time my family members saw her. She was being passed around frm arm to arm n she slept through the entire time! The onli time she cried was when she wanted milk. 

So realli motherhood/parenthood has been a breeze for us so far. So nth much to rant about. Jus tt last nite we were realli exhausted. One of the most tiring nites cuz I would go to sleep n she would wake up exactly 3hrs later to drink. Daddy didn't sleep till 7am cuz he was on a caffeine buzz. 

I'm realli thankful my husband has been super hands on wif her mid nite feedings especially. Cuz I hav to pump n it's jus nt possible for me to feed her too. So when I pump he feeds her. We are all in this together! Haha n honestly waking up to her cries is quite satisfying n pleasing. Like when she cries she sounds super pitiful. All u wanna do is quickly satisfy her n seeing her satisfied face is so worth the disrupted sleep (: 

Tummy time wif daddy 

This was after feeding her. Jus look at tt satisfied n contented face! Haha

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When I look at my princess I find it super amazing n incredible tt she actually grew inside me. We saw her frm the sonograms n nw she's out. I still am in disbelief I was even pregnant wif her. There's no amount of kisses I can give her to express hw much I love her.